Scott

Scott is my friend and my ex-boyfriend. We met on June 15, 2011 and on July 4 we started to date, then we broke up after a month or two! But now still looking at him, smelling him on my clothes and my sheets makes my heart flutter! My feelings for him are getting stronger, but if i tell him that he might leave. But Im not going to let him go till the world stops spinning and the sun and the stars explode.

He comes over a lot to hang out but all we really do is lay in my bed together! Sometimes we cuddle and sometimes we do other stuff. He knows I like him, but he also knows I radther have him as a friend than nothing at all. And I truely need him now, he is the closet thing I have to my father! I know that sounds weird, but I think God gave me him to help me get over the death of my dad.

I think I am in love with him though....With every touch, smell, and laugh I fall deeper and deeper. I know that he will probally not have the same amount of feelings that I have but I do beleive that he has some feelings that he dont want to admit. Thats all I need and I still hope he will share the same feelings I have if I show him more of who I am and how happy I could make him.

When we hang out it is fun most of the time! Then he says something that hurts me. He doesnt mean to hurt me its just he doesnt think before he speaks. He can be sweet but also he can be mean. I havent really seen his mean side yet but I know I will probally push him to that point one day! Hopefully that is not anytime soon...

Right now I am not ready to give him up or say goodbye! So for now I am going to be what he wants me to be and how he wants me to act! I am not going to push him!